Cried

I did. Specially last friday night.. I kept on thinking of my Dad.. Oh my.. how I miss him soooo much.. =(
time flies, I have to work and settle down myself. I am the only one in the family, but does that have to make me stay around my Dad? He has his own job and I have mine.. which separates us away.. I don't know why, but I prefer to survive myself, and I'm not that interested of working at Manado (yet - who knows I might change my mind later).
I don't know what's gonna happen later when I get married. It's  gonna be probably once in a year if possible of meeting him (just like now, infact).. hmmm.. although he's retired later, will he stay with me?
I'm questioning myself : "am I abandoning him?"

I have much stress lately. I was sick last saturday.. I slept late, and the weather was also cold.

And again, I'm confused with one thing, the "take it or leave it" thing.