I...
I'm speechless looking all over those pictures...
it refreshed my mind of the day.. the day the picture was taken.
I admit, we quarrel a lot. I pissed you off of a lot of things, starting from small till big things.
You got mad at me, you were even had to cry to face me sometimes.
You stop me from doing things with reasonable reasons and sometimes unreasonable reasons that made me argue with you.. a lot.
My chest was so painful looking at those pictures.. and still, I still feel the pain till now..
Looking at it, is like saying to myself "it's crazy, she's gone man.."
why can't it just went smooth? why? why can't it just go smooth like what I use to dream? Dreaming a dream with you in it, and that we talked and I said: "we haven't pray for your recovery" and you just smiled and didn't say a thing. But then, it only last as a dream.. dream that will never come true... and I keep on dreaming of it... many times, to admit. I use to dream that you recovered and everything seemed so real... how I wish that dreams are real sometimes...
I feel this pain in my head looking at those pictures as memories got back into my 
mind..
So painful!
I have to go trough life without you.. how I wish it had never had to happen that soon., but well...
it did happened to me, it did happened to my life... what I use to call "the strongest wind in my life".
It's so painful living without you...
Mom,
I want you, I want you back!!!
Mom, I really miss you...
I'm speechless looking all over those pictures...
it refreshed my mind of the day.. the day the picture was taken.
I admit, we quarrel a lot. I pissed you off of a lot of things, starting from small till big things.
You got mad at me, you were even had to cry to face me sometimes.
You stop me from doing things with reasonable reasons and sometimes unreasonable reasons that made me argue with you.. a lot.
My chest was so painful looking at those pictures.. and still, I still feel the pain till now..
Looking at it, is like saying to myself "it's crazy, she's gone man.."
why can't it just went smooth? why? why can't it just go smooth like what I use to dream? Dreaming a dream with you in it, and that we talked and I said: "we haven't pray for your recovery" and you just smiled and didn't say a thing. But then, it only last as a dream.. dream that will never come true... and I keep on dreaming of it... many times, to admit. I use to dream that you recovered and everything seemed so real... how I wish that dreams are real sometimes...
I feel this pain in my head looking at those pictures as memories got back into my 
mind..So painful!
I have to go trough life without you.. how I wish it had never had to happen that soon., but well...
it did happened to me, it did happened to my life... what I use to call "the strongest wind in my life".
It's so painful living without you...Mom,
I want you, I want you back!!!
Mom, I really miss you...
2 comments:
ohhh, i'm so sorry sindy. i can't imagine how terrible it must be to lose your mother. it's just not right. it's not fair. my boyfriend lost his mom when he was 19. she had brain cancer for 12 years. it was so hard for him, and almost 10 years later, it's still really hard for him, and he still misses her so much. just remember that you will see her again in heaven one day and that you will always ALWAYS have your memories of her. and remember that she loved you more than anything even if you guys did quarrel and argue sometimes...all moms and daughters fight after all!
Thank you so much, Jasmine!!
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