A LITTLE BIT OF MY CONFESSION

Well this is actually something personal, I'm not even sure whether I should share this or not...

Maybe I have mentioned this soo many times (or at least in my head), that I went trough bitterness in life: watching my mother got very sick (loose her then after all), and loosing my Dad just few hours after knowing he was hospitalized, both happened while I was living away from them.  During my Mother's time, I was somehow did it in purpose (lived away): I could no longer stand watching her living in pain...  you have no idea how drained my soul was... (so in this case you can't judge me) I'm not sure whether I regret it or not by now... thinking what if I was on her shoes, what if I was in her position.. what would I expect? I would probably expect to die later on with my family surrounding me...
I don't wanna talk about this, but I wanna talk about this.  Weird, I know.

Trough all things that I had to go trough, trough all my sleepless nights, trough all of my tears, trough all of the time spent thinking, thinking, and thinking, days, nights, months, years....
This saying caught me:

YOLO

Yes,

You Only Live Once.

So why spent years to grieve?
So why spent time to be unhappy?
So why getting into troubles?
So why being so stingy to other people while we are too "generous" to ourselves?
SO WHY NOT ENJOY LIFE?
So why not enjoy the time with your family?
So why not enjoy the little things?
So why not be content?
So why not create happiness in our lives?
So why not make others happy too?
Happy vibes? why not!

Hey! That's not possible! Nothing is perfect in this world... You can't live without pain, grief, and so on!

But hey, let's not those things consume our mind, our lives, that we may forget to live our our lives!

In my case, let them be my happy memory... :') (this is not easy, though... eventually makes me miss them more..)

So cheers to new shoes, online shopping, gifts, chocolates, dining out, eat good food, taking kids to play land, watching movies and play games with them, taking silly and beautiful pictures, buying toys, and so on :).

YOU, DESPITE ALL THE PAIN AND GRIEF, JUST DON'T FORGET TO LIVE YOUR OWN LIFE AND BE HAPPY :) 

Remember,

YOU. ONLY. LIVE. ONCE.

P.s. So don't judge me for all those online shopping and all those unboxing sessions in my IG story posts! Hahah... :))  I'm just enjoying my life... :)