Wow.. the last time I wrote was on May?
Sweetheart, do you wanna know what happened afterwards?
Your Mama/Bunda had hyper-emesis and finally gave up and had to be hospitalized. I had never been hospitalized before.. I gave up, scared that we might get exposed to dehydration. I was sooo weak..
One spoon in, I threw up. One gulp of water, I threw up. All morning all night..
Akhirnya your Mama/Bunda di infus juga.. for the first time in my life..
It wasn't easy De'.. and, I'm not complaining at you.. I just feel like I want to talk to you and want you to know, how hard it was/is, I am always grateful for you.. :), you are one creature that makes us always excited!!! :). Anyway, rasanya di infus? seperti ditusuk untuk ambil darah, tapi jarumnya ga dicabut-cabut.. hahahaha.. and I had no idea kalo selang kareng yang masuk itu ternyata panjangg loh De'.. I thought pendek aja gitu, jadi takut copot. Tau-taunya...
2-3 hari makan udah lumayan enak di RS, tapi pas akhir-akhir, kumat lagi mual-mun-nya..
setelah satu minggu di RS, Mama/Bunda decided to go home karena staying longer means harus pindah colokan infus.. hehehehe... So Mama/Papa/Bunda/Ayah (whichever you would call us later) pulang berbekal obat-obatan, tidak lupa obat mual.
Mama was hopitalized from monday to monday. That thursday, Mama USG pake alat USG yang lebih besar di lantai bawah.. the room was scaaarrryyy and dim.. took a pretty long time waiting for the doctor while Mama was laying on a bed..
Finally found out that the doctor knows your grandparents from both sides.. hehehehe.. :)
Anyways, that was the first time Mama heard your HEARTBEAT!!!! WWWAAAHHH!!! And you were moving around with those little hands.. hihihi.. can't clearly see your feet since mungkin karena ada tali pusar kali' yah, so ngga begitu fokus.. yes, the head is still bigger than the body, and seems like your heart is in your tummy still... hehehehe... too bad Papa/Ayah wasn't there.. he was working.
One good thing that I was grateful for, that I got a room mate that I know.. Papa stayed up to 12 or past 1 early in the morning, and when Mama is sleeping/sleepy, he leaves for home.. because in that room there was no extra bed available.
Anyways, now Mama stop drinking obat mualnya.. takut juga, 2-3 bulan minum obat mual terus.. getting better but that that good yet.. minggu lalu, 2 hari sempet ada appetite dan ga muntah, enak makan.. but after that.. yahhh... gini lagi.. mual mun terus.. till this morning.. :(. I'm fighting hard for this, for you, De'...
Thank God for you Papa/Ayah yang sabaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrr ngurusin kita... Walaupun kadang-kadang suka kelepasan marahin Mama karena I bet he's so scared looking at me not eating well, lemes-lemes, and I lost weight.. becomes so thin... we only argue for those stuff.. he's so worry about us.. :).
You know what, Mama sekarang ga bergairah belanja-belanja, walaupun your Papa sometimes bilang "beli aja" or "kamu mau? beli aja"... ngga tau kenapa... ga mood aja gitu De'... tapi, uang yang dikeluarin itu mungkin lebih banyak karena Mama bisanya makan buah-buahan, roti, and stuff like that.. seminggu bisa beberapa kali belanja buah di mall (kualitas lebih bagus/kualitas pilihan)... hahaha...
You know De', Mama/Bunda seriiiiiinggg banget, everyday.. till I sleep.. yang dipikirin/dibayangin itu adalah lauk-lauk makanan Manado, tapi sayangnya Mama still can't eat rice.. it's "wueeeekkk!!!" for me.. it's been mayble 2-3 months not eating rice.. makanan yang dimasak udah bbrp kali di coba, tapi pas keluar alias throw up, haduhhh rasanya ga enaaakkk bgttt... :( untung kemaren-kemaren kak Nita Sibuea-Maringka sering bikinin tinutuan (with lesssss bubur) for Mama to eat. Otherwise, Mama doesn't eat veggies. Hmm.
Selain makanan, of course: YOU. YOU. YOU and YOU.
I wonder how you look like, what gender are you, and really loves to rub your tummy with minyak telon.. :').. aaahhh how can I miss someone I haven't met yet? :). I always say to your Dad, "iiiiihhhh pengen liat mukanyaaaaaa..." :).
I hope that although I am so weak, until now, I hope that you are still doing well in me.. you can take anything from me for you.. I am really fighting for this.. I really wanna eat well, eat normally, but I still can't, masih mual dan muntah.. :(. So you keep strong, in there, k??
I love you... :)
See you tomorrow.. :)
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